viona daisy

i wish i never look, i wish i never touch, i wish that i could stop loving you so much

Wed, 15 May 2013 04:01:14 -0400

NEW YEARS

Wed, 02 Jan 2013 22:25:56 -0500

days that passed two weeks exact before los angeles call on me was like a wink that remained as memories forever, so did the years that i had lived my life for eighteen years.

HAPPY NEW YEARS, may 2013 year concrete my thoughts, emotions, spirits, mind and soul as a truly new person. so may you all

dedicated to my beloved grandma in memoriam

Sun, 09 Dec 2012 15:22:20 -0500

i need to talk with you again

why did you go away

all our time together still feels like yesterday

i never thought i’d see a single day without you

the things we take for granted we can sometimes lose

and if i promise not to feel this pain

will i see you again? will i see you again?

cause time will pass me by, maybe i’ll never learn to smile

but i know i’ll make it through if you wait for me

and all the tears i cry, no matter how i try

they never bring you home to me

wont you wait for me in heaven

do you remember how it was

when we never seem to care

they days went by so quickly

cause i thought you would always be there

and its hard to let you go

though i know that i must try

i feel like i’ve been cheated

cause we never say goodbye

and if i promise not to feel this pain

will i see you again? will i see you again?

cause time will pass me by, maybe i’ll never learn to smile

but i know i’ll make it through

if you wait for me

and all the tears i’ll cry

no matter how i try

they never bring you home to me

won’t you wait for me

in heaven

visiting city of bay for thanksgiving!

Wed, 21 Nov 2012 23:11:55 -0500

California is awesome!

Sat, 17 Nov 2012 01:01:33 -0500

of course discounting the studies part, days that passed seize my sight that california isn’t that bad though it sounds hell’in during these couple months.

howdy! October nearly approaching, time flies rapidly as if i just stepped outside home and leave.

Sun, 23 Sep 2012 19:50:44 -0400

howdy! October nearly approaching, time flies rapidly as if i just stepped outside home and leave.

weeks in California

Thu, 13 Sep 2012 23:02:01 -0400

proudly to say that i’ve passed my miserable days here in Pasadena.

i hate the fact of being dumb to ever let myself choose pasadena instead of numerous places that i would ever wanted to go. first day in los angeles was a total mess. i cried along way here, recalling that i make a big mistake for leaving home.

second day of my path, exactly a day before first semester starts. i were brought to tease and bit los angeles downtown culinary spots with felicity.

first day of school was an asshole suit to its name, im freaking out of hell being followed by 2 mexicans on the way home. but count a bless that i got nothing to be worried.

Medan oh why so sad

Fri, 24 Aug 2012 14:08:43 -0400

Being in medan for the real last night.
Hard to say goodbye though.
I thank everyone for coming to my last farewell dinner and much thanks for my beloved friend and niece for bought me wonderful gift.
For all, i really thanked my parent for giving me such a chance living my own and pathway reaching my dreams. I owe your endless love,tenderness and care. I wont ever count my bless if i didnt go abroad.
Also i fell thankfull to have such loyal friends and families that support me full everyday everyhour and everyminute.
I feel hard to let myself go and hurt my feelings for sadness. I wish time tick slower than whenever it is.

May luck and blessing of buddha be with me anytime and anywhere.
Goodnight people, a bright future is waiting

Loha aloha

Wed, 22 Aug 2012 13:33:08 -0400

2 nights left to pack and leave stuffs back to state.
I learnt that our perception do affected soulnation.
Had fresh brew coffee time with sefu (woman monk in temple), we talked much. She did inspire and support me fully.
It is fright that i encountered these few days, heartbeat that bumps so fast, desire to stay longer and fear that i might fail. While i got dreams and big goal for future instead. A saying my heart and brain got no balance. It isnt that hard if i shut the fear off and enjoy living in day-compartments.

when excitement turns into fear

Mon, 20 Aug 2012 00:04:04 -0400

hello from where i belong.

twenty of august : #gloom #uneasy #scare #fear #suffocate #dilemma #struggle #stumble #vie and so on. what i feel today so as the following day

time tick closer along with days that passed, i’m seconds to be a freshmen in college that i chose to start/end my life. told myself that i’m eligible and everything is gonna be okay leaving miles away from home. i aint that spoil by the way

I just got my dental surgery last night in case to take out the wisdom tooth and the thing is im...

Wed, 15 Aug 2012 00:02:55 -0400

I just got my dental surgery last night in case to take out the wisdom tooth and the thing is im really fucked up today. Cant swallow anything and even worst talking is hard. Can you imagine how my suffering this pain after surgery? God
Both my face side swell to its biggest size and thank god i got no bruice on it.

wise man once said : don't let belongingness screw yourself.

Sat, 11 Aug 2012 12:15:04 -0400

why should i post things to media?
reason 1, i got no one to share better than e-world
reason 2, no one judge within
reason 3, kill my boredom
reason 4 and so forth, practice my english hahaa

feel free to envy my saturday. i was filled with lots of indonesian foods. starting from morning i had porridge homemade by kuma then i had two donuts. go on mie rebus as lunch and nasi padang garuda plus martabak bangka for dinner. indonesian food has been in the top must eat list for me.

Hi again waken up by nightmare and fears of expectation may be too far. Yes me What i learn is...

Thu, 09 Aug 2012 22:28:11 -0400

Hi again
waken up by nightmare and fears of expectation may be too far. Yes me

What i learn is people do have various expectations on their own, you cant blame either theirselves or yourself when things run out from what you’ve planned and expected.
Then it comes the phrase of ugly truth and nobody perfect

Friends,love,family have their own pride to swallow then why blame them when you’ve got hurt? Even yourself do tell white lies to cover mistakes. Then why bother if bestfriend of your own did the same thing.

Baby you dont know what is like

Sun, 05 Aug 2012 22:55:20 -0400

August six, yet exactly nineteen days leaving my home,family,friends and my dogs for a year. I wont know how much tears will shade on 25 of august morning. The truth is i dont feel like wanna back to college. I cant bear myself leaving my puffy bed bolster pillow and blanket of course with momo’s smell hahaha.
And still i was thinking why should i fear of leaving mean everybody must leave one day, though yea im leaving for good not forever.

Ronald my dear bestfriend has started his journey to indianapolis bloomington for university life, he just arrived this morning hm yesterday evening in eastern time. We did make a short chat saying how are you and how is indiana. He said that i should follow his journey to hell hahaha his place was nothing more than green grasses. I miss him like i miss everyone during my time in us. But i do hope the best for him

People leaves yet memories wont fade away

Sun, 29 Jul 2012 20:44:45 -0400

First of august is born too realistic. I hate the fact being in pasadena for fall, california weather during august and september is kiddin all of its fellas. New semester for college will begin in just a blink of my eyes means i will face such pre-calculus and calculus subject for the rest of half and a year in stupid college. I miss those good life during in new york city, om japutra and family are waiting for my winter break to see new york and im so bloody excited. You will never know how fears and angers encounter when you live far far away from home or without a guardian. Why am i so stupid to choose california instead of ny. Which is in ny i didnt feel that suffer that pain that lost and homesick.

freedom and hope

Sun, 15 Jul 2012 21:54:00 -0400

whats up tumblrs

i am now breathing the summer breeze of new york city. OMFG i really love this city, i never stop adoring the big apple for my sake. everything seems so wonderful here. i stay in farmingdale, a small country style town in long island, new york. takes forty-five minutes drive from manhattan. thanks to my gorgeous family here, uncle jimmy and aunt cunies. me and my mother really had a great time.

again, life in los angeles is extremely hectic i said. i miss everyone during there. i feel hard living there tough, im not having fun at all. my college uhm geez i dont know. but im trying to love it tough, it is my home for two years before the university life. which city i would like to be in the next two years time. the red bridge or the city that never sleep?

OFFICIALLY A FANS OF @PARADISEFEARS

Sun, 24 Jun 2012 11:04:58 -0400

OFFICIALLY A FANS OF @PARADISEFEARS

mazeltov!

Sun, 24 Jun 2012 10:42:05 -0400

mazeltov!

NEW YORK CITY, I'M COMING BABY!

Sat, 23 Jun 2012 21:57:02 -0400

further expetation

Fri, 22 Jun 2012 20:51:40 -0400

morning gloomy,

i can’t bear myself any longer for being so stupid, miserable, mean less with high expectation. is it a brainy low intelligent projects retard aptitude?

i find myself being part in fashion sphere, my passion is on art. contrive materials into garment, pattern, which ended up in retail business, being the CEO of my own label.
before, i am about to enroll in business management & administration in business program at pasadena city college for two years and i dreamt of being berkeley fresh-graduate. so i can face the world saying ‘I CAN’ my success defines what i want.
berkeley is my prioritize for now and later.

this is for my beloved father, who works hands to bones.