i wish i never look, i wish i never touch, i wish...
days that passed two weeks exact before los angeles call on me was like a wink that remained as memories forever, so did the years that i had lived my life for eighteen years. HAPPY NEW YEARS, may 2013 year concrete my thoughts, emotions, spirits, mind and soul as a truly new person. so may you all
dedicated to my beloved grandma in memoriam
i need to talk with you again why did you go away all our time together still feels like yesterday i never thought i’d see a single day without you the things we take for granted we can sometimes lose and if i promise not to feel this pain will i see you again? will i see you again? cause time will pass me by, maybe i’ll never learn to smile but i know i’ll make it...
visiting city of bay for thanksgiving!
California is awesome!
of course discounting the studies part, days that passed seize my sight that california isn’t that bad though it sounds hell’in during these couple months.
howdy! October nearly approaching, time flies rapidly as if i just stepped outside home and leave.
weeks in California
proudly to say that i’ve passed my miserable days here in Pasadena. i hate the fact of being dumb to ever let myself choose pasadena instead of numerous places that i would ever wanted to go. first day in los angeles was a total mess. i cried along way here, recalling that i make a big mistake for leaving home. second day of my path, exactly a day before first semester starts. i were...
Medan oh why so sad
Being in medan for the real last night. Hard to say goodbye though. I thank everyone for coming to my last farewell dinner and much thanks for my beloved friend and niece for bought me wonderful gift. For all, i really thanked my parent for giving me such a chance living my own and pathway reaching my dreams. I owe your endless love,tenderness and care. I wont ever count my bless if i didnt go...
2 nights left to pack and leave stuffs back to state. I learnt that our perception do affected soulnation. Had fresh brew coffee time with sefu (woman monk in temple), we talked much. She did inspire and support me fully. It is fright that i encountered these few days, heartbeat that bumps so fast, desire to stay longer and fear that i might fail. While i got dreams and big goal for future...
when excitement turns into fear
hello from where i belong. twenty of august : #gloom #uneasy #scare #fear #suffocate #dilemma #struggle #stumble #vie and so on. what i feel today so as the following day time tick closer along with days that passed, i’m seconds to be a freshmen in college that i chose to start/end my life. told myself that i’m eligible and everything is gonna be okay leaving miles away from...
I just got my dental surgery last night in case to take out the wisdom tooth and the thing is im really fucked up today. Cant swallow anything and even worst talking is hard. Can you imagine how my suffering this pain after surgery? God Both my face side swell to its biggest size and thank god i got no bruice on it.
wise man once said : don't let belongingness screw...
why should i post things to media? reason 1, i got no one to share better than e-world reason 2, no one judge within reason 3, kill my boredom reason 4 and so forth, practice my english hahaa feel free to envy my saturday. i was filled with lots of indonesian foods. starting from morning i had porridge homemade by kuma then i had two donuts. go on mie rebus as lunch and nasi padang garuda plus...
Hi again waken up by nightmare and fears of expectation may be too far. Yes me What i learn is people do have various expectations on their own, you cant blame either theirselves or yourself when things run out from what you’ve planned and expected. Then it comes the phrase of ugly truth and nobody perfect Friends,love,family have their own pride to swallow then why blame them when...
Baby you dont know what is like
August six, yet exactly nineteen days leaving my home,family,friends and my dogs for a year. I wont know how much tears will shade on 25 of august morning. The truth is i dont feel like wanna back to college. I cant bear myself leaving my puffy bed bolster pillow and blanket of course with momo’s smell hahaha. And still i was thinking why should i fear of leaving mean everybody must leave...
People leaves yet memories wont fade away
First of august is born too realistic. I hate the fact being in pasadena for fall, california weather during august and september is kiddin all of its fellas. New semester for college will begin in just a blink of my eyes means i will face such pre-calculus and calculus subject for the rest of half and a year in stupid college. I miss those good life during in new york city, om japutra and family...
freedom and hope
whats up tumblrs i am now breathing the summer breeze of new york city. OMFG i really love this city, i never stop adoring the big apple for my sake. everything seems so wonderful here. i stay in farmingdale, a small country style town in long island, new york. takes forty-five minutes drive from manhattan. thanks to my gorgeous family here, uncle jimmy and aunt cunies. me and my mother really...
NEW YORK CITY, I'M COMING BABY!
morning gloomy, i can’t bear myself any longer for being so stupid, miserable, mean less with high expectation. is it a brainy low intelligent projects retard aptitude? i find myself being part in fashion sphere, my passion is on art. contrive materials into garment, pattern, which ended up in retail business, being the CEO of my own label. before, i am about to enroll in business...
im so back in forth my daily routines after paid short visit to the ginseng country.. dough to say, it is a complete restless trip ever existed which in verse pleasure seekers of social networking first shot and so it comes two weeks afterward is the agendas of threatening flight mode, intend from MES-SGP-NARITA-LAX-JFK-FRANKFRUIT-SGP-MES isnt that suicide? kill my ass for a complete fancies of...
the're's no hap'py end'ing
weeks after my last presence. guess what i’m doing! my past weeks were bonded with personality so did accounting classes. it is such a relief that jrp class was over, yeay im not need to pain myself in 5 hours lecture. anyway i really miss yuvi,amel,della those silly fellas. miss heather’s class is a game over, paid lunchion farewell. okay quote to self ‘say hello to...
wisely said an uneasy night. for almost eighteen years, i still dont know what i aim for in life. why im putting behalf which was called ‘so so’ in everything, my studies forsake. i do push myself sometimes, i wish everything exactly like i’ve planned. things go wrong, i blame. i cant stand to see people do great jobs over me, i got humiliated truly. even simple grammar i cant,...
voila good, im surrounded by deadlines, f-1 interview on this tuesday, more tuitions approaching, john robert power class starts on 21st may. blood check up tomorrow followed up by unpacking stuffs to solo the next day. oh my god intended to hear that pasadena is quite a rich old town, unloaded by shopping malls even department store is not included, quite near to starbucks and small recommended...
sorry for being abrupt. i just drooled about...
begging on my own volition and pardon to involve in fashion neither before smacking my own upper arms! i feel dying to truce my own without foods for days nor i kept eating and repeated myself that diet starts tomorrow. the truth is i envied all those bloody smexy body owners
regarded myself within the upper side...
aim counting the deizzz, bloody retarded me cant pass the minimum score paper test to get my license phew. months are closer, def will leaving for california in twenty-seventh of june aafdghjfdkg please i dont wanna goooooo that far. thousand miles apart from home but thanks papa forcing me to be back in home, but not before my lost new york trip after pasadena orientation instead of leaving me...
feeding my frenzy!
final game is over. hamburgers…
a day less
wednesday the april eighteen. i am supposed being settled down below my creepy single desk-light marching along with anatomies,molecular,ions,genetics and such. national exam bits 2subjects tomorrow. i dont wish for luck yet i bet for luck.
first day of the national exam, quite nervous at first but smoothly ended. cant describe how happy i am in this few days to go, aside from temporary school breaks, promnite, travel plans and left few months leaving for los angeles. i dont wanna leave medan for god sake, i am afraid, yes afraid of leaving my family here. afraid of my bias life there. but ive chosen my path. i really hope the...
eleven of april, a quite joyous yet glummest day. sense of the graduation day is around the corner, not an official graduate but a last attendance to class in senior high period. several mates cried today. speech given by madam tjui tjin, sir jekson and mr. HL , class photo session, wishes so on so forth. so sad but true
Adornment, what a science! Beauty, what a weapon! Modesty, what elegance!– Mademoiselle chanel
Rio de Janeiro, 2014
LIFE IS ABOUT 70% SUCCESS AND 30% FAILURE.
straight away to view this statement that life is about 70% success and 30% failure - AJAHN BRAHM . people must dream high which said the entrepreneurs, but life must let go everything. dream,plans,results are not the happiness, when you achieved what you want, you’ll never be satisfied, work more harder to be better and better, not having time to enjoy and appreciate life. every success...
one step closer
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LOS ANGELES, CALIFORNIA
second day of exams, second weeks of march. thanks to pasadena city college for admitted me. undeniable believe that i am going to graduate in 10 days afterward march. quite shocking to know that i might leaving schools, friends, teachers. again leaving my sincere family, dad mom two small guys, my pets in 4 months. living in new environment with all by myself. may lucks with me :)
EXAMS WEEKS = STRESS. cyber tons of exams following by the 9th march to nineteenth. should i be grate? second to last exams in school life?!
ACT WITH INTENTION, COMMUNICATE WITH CONFIDENCE,...
i am eager to be an one day person that changed the whole view of people into me. the one who makes everyone happy, the inspiring one. the one who doesn’t burden everyone. times do not wait for me.
I am an agnostic