days that passed two weeks exact before los angeles call on me was like a wink that remained as memories forever, so did the years that i had lived my life for eighteen years.
HAPPY NEW YEARS, may 2013 year concrete my thoughts, emotions, spirits, mind and soul as a truly new person. so may you all
i need to talk with you again
why did you go away
all our time together still feels like yesterday
i never thought i’d see a single day without you
the things we take for granted we can sometimes lose
and if i promise not to feel this pain
will i see you again? will i see you again?
cause time will pass me by, maybe i’ll never learn to smile
but i know i’ll make it through if you wait for me
and all the tears i cry, no matter how i try
they never bring you home to me
wont you wait for me in heaven
do you remember how it was
when we never seem to care
they days went by so quickly
cause i thought you would always be there
and its hard to let you go
though i know that i must try
i feel like i’ve been cheated
cause we never say goodbye
and if i promise not to feel this pain
will i see you again? will i see you again?
cause time will pass me by, maybe i’ll never learn to smile
but i know i’ll make it through
if you wait for me
and all the tears i’ll cry
no matter how i try
they never bring you home to me
won’t you wait for me
in heaven
of course discounting the studies part, days that passed seize my sight that california isn’t that bad though it sounds hell’in during these couple months.
howdy! October nearly approaching, time flies rapidly as if i just stepped outside home and leave.
proudly to say that i’ve passed my miserable days here in Pasadena.
i hate the fact of being dumb to ever let myself choose pasadena instead of numerous places that i would ever wanted to go. first day in los angeles was a total mess. i cried along way here, recalling that i make a big mistake for leaving home.
second day of my path, exactly a day before first semester starts. i were brought to tease and bit los angeles downtown culinary spots with felicity.
first day of school was an asshole suit to its name, im freaking out of hell being followed by 2 mexicans on the way home. but count a bless that i got nothing to be worried.
Being in medan for the real last night.
Hard to say goodbye though.
I thank everyone for coming to my last farewell dinner and much thanks for my beloved friend and niece for bought me wonderful gift.
For all, i really thanked my parent for giving me such a chance living my own and pathway reaching my dreams. I owe your endless love,tenderness and care. I wont ever count my bless if i didnt go abroad.
Also i fell thankfull to have such loyal friends and families that support me full everyday everyhour and everyminute.
I feel hard to let myself go and hurt my feelings for sadness. I wish time tick slower than whenever it is.
May luck and blessing of buddha be with me anytime and anywhere.
Goodnight people, a bright future is waiting
2 nights left to pack and leave stuffs back to state.
I learnt that our perception do affected soulnation.
Had fresh brew coffee time with sefu (woman monk in temple), we talked much. She did inspire and support me fully.
It is fright that i encountered these few days, heartbeat that bumps so fast, desire to stay longer and fear that i might fail. While i got dreams and big goal for future instead. A saying my heart and brain got no balance. It isnt that hard if i shut the fear off and enjoy living in day-compartments.
hello from where i belong.
twenty of august : #gloom #uneasy #scare #fear #suffocate #dilemma #struggle #stumble #vie and so on. what i feel today so as the following day
time tick closer along with days that passed, i’m seconds to be a freshmen in college that i chose to start/end my life. told myself that i’m eligible and everything is gonna be okay leaving miles away from home. i aint that spoil by the way
